Swanfire Forever

Hello Lovelies,

I like stories. I'm sure that's no surprise to you all by now. I love the characters and the way they interact and develop throughout the story. And of course, I love the relationships.

Now, I have many favourite pairings.

Anne and Gilbert...

Katniss and Gale...

Kevin and Jane...

But my current all time favourite is Emma and Neal. Swanfire. (Spoilers for season three ahead. If you want to skip my ramble, but still want Swanfire feels, head to the bottom. There's my fan edit video down there. ^^)

*SPOILERS FOR SEASON THREE*

They're just so incredible! They have this intense past that makes them wary of love and trusting anyone. Then they create a deep history together. Then they meet each other eleven years later as broken, hurting people and realize that they're still completely in love with each other. And that terrifies Emma. The idea of loving the same guy that messed up her life earlier, even if he thought he was doing the right thing, is a frightening prospect. And for him, he feels hopeless. He knows he's done wrong by her. He can see the weight of his actions weighing on her shoulders. But he still loves her. 

Then he "dies" and Emma is left grieving even more than the first time he left her. The first time he left, she was mad and angry and had sworn never to see him again. It was completely over in her mind. When they met again, hope and fear began to spring up inside her. Maybe it wasn't over. Maybe they had a chance. Maybe they could make things right. Maybe she was completely terrified that she still loved him after all this time. When he died, not only did she grieve over him, but over the chance that they had and then lost. She had spent eleven years thinking he didn't love her, only to learn that he had loved her, deeply, but wanted to do the right thing. The grief is mixed with a different kind of anger. More of a "what if?" kind of anger.

While Neal is "dead", she reaches out to other places, trying to fill the gaping hole that he left. She needs something to fill it. She's been with Neal again and it's only grown the pain and need for something in her life. Here, we see her with Hook.

I'm sorry Captain Swan shippers, but it is my firm opinion that to Emma, for a good portion of the beginning of their relationship, Hook was an attempt to fill a hole. I don't think Emma really had any strong feelings towards him until some time into season four.  

It's funny, because Neal does the same thing with Emma. He has Tamara, who he tells Emma he "needs". It's my humble opinion that he's also trying to fill a hole. He can't have Emma, so he reaches out for anything that will numb the pain. 

     Echo Cave changed a lot in the dynamic of their relationship. For the first time since they met again, Emma is transparent with him, telling him exactly how she feels. I know she told Neal she loved him a few episodes earlier, but I think there's a really big difference between the two occasions. The first time, he was about to die. She didn't have to face any consequences of her confession. He would be gone. This time, she is telling him she loves him knowing that there will most likely be ramifications later. 

     After Neal gets out of his prison, he makes the bold declaration that he's never going to stop fighting for her, ever. He knows she loves him, he knows she's scared, and he knows that he's going to have to fight hard to win her trust back.

And this is where the writers did two horrible things wrong. They put Emma with Hook and they killed Neal. And I can't believe they did either. In my mind, Emma and Neal should have been end game. They'd been through so much and come so far, it seems unfair, cruel even, to have them not end up together. For heaven's sakes! They have a child together! Even if the writers had to stick Hook and Emma together, why did they have to kill Neal? It's just cruelty.

Anywho! If you've skipped my rant, my video is below.

Is anyone else really excited for season five to start??

Also! My sister Victoria and I have started up a book blog over at Sparrow and Acorn: Book Reviews if you want to check it out.

Film Camp

Hello Lovelies!!

If you remember, a few posts ago, I talked about my genius realization that I should go into film, as I love writing and working with a camera. Well, shortly after I posted that post, I signed up for film camp in Toronto and two weeks ago, I actually went. Le gasp! Sarah interacting with other humans! Le gasp!

It was such an amazing experience. I typically find it really hard to be with other humans for an extended period of time as I get really tired, but at the end of these eight hour days, I left the group of twenty six feeling energized and inspired. I got to work with amazing people and amazing equipment and it completely confirmed the fact that I should go into film.

Ten points to you if you can spot me.

Every day we did one or two little films and then attended workshops with guest professionals (one was the writer and producer of Orphan Black, another had shot music videos with Drake and was scheduled to film a movie with Donald Sutherland, another had just finished directing and writing her first full length movie, you get the gist).

We were split up on the first day into groups and in our little groups, we were to come up with an idea for a short film, write a script and then shoot and edit it. This was my group's movie. I got to write and direct some of it and act in a bunch of it as the main girl. Just a warning, my acting is not great. In fact, it's pretty terrible. The funny thing about this camp was that everyone was so much more comfortable behind the camera, so no one really wanted to act. Therefore, I was stuck with the job. I am not an actor. Don't judge. But enjoy. Because I really enjoyed making it.

It was an amazing experience and definitely one of the high lights of my year.

Top 5 Plot Twists in Once

Hello Lovelies!

*SPOILER ALERT*

I just finished all of the Once Upon a Time that has currently been released to date and I'm so flipping mad at how the season finale ended! You can't just leave people like that be and be like, "Ta ta! See you four months! Enjoy the stress." Anyways, I'm trying to remind myself that this show is pretty good at throwing all sort of things at you and they (usually) work out. And honestly, I do like the plot twists. They keep me on my feet. So! I've decided to do a countdown of the top five plot twists in the show so far.

5. Marian is actually Zelena.

Ooh, this was frustrating. Immensely so. Regina was finally going to get her happy ending with Robin Hood and be happy and good. Not only does Zelena completely mess with Robin and Regina, but she places a wedge between Regina and Emma who were finally starting to get along. I was trying to figure out how to kindly or heroically kill Marian off because she wasn't a bad person and the only reason I didn't like her was because she was married to Robin. And then we find out she isn't actually Marian and the real Marian is dead and I just want to rip her head off.  But, with all that frustration being expressed, I must admit, I didn't expect this whatsoever.

4. Lily is Maleficent's daughter.

Okay, I will admit, I did figure this one out before it happened. It was really clever of them to place Lily in Emma's past and I love the way they managed to weave her character into Emma's present time. When we originally learned that Emma had been friends with Lily seasons ago, I really hoped that she would find Lily again to at least make up if not be friends. And then when Maleficent's egg got sent to our world and survived, at the same time Snow was pregnant with Emma, I was pretty sure the egg would be Lily.

3. Little Red is also the wolf.

Not the biggest of plot twists ever but so cool. I don't remember if I figured this one out before it was revealed, but I was definitely impressed with the cleverness of this one. I was sorry she had to kill Peter to find out she was the wolf (Peter and the Wolf, eh?? Should've seen that one coming...), but it made her character so much richer and so much more interesting. It also helped to explain Granny's brutish attitude.

2. Baelfire and Neal are the same person.

This one is only less cool than the first one by like a sliver of a fraction of an inch. I mean, it related everyone to each other and my mind was blown. I mean, we knew Neal was Henry's father. And we knew that Bae was Rumple's son. But for Neal and Bae to be the same person introduced a whole new level of "WHOAAA!" I think I figured this out as soon as we started seeing Neal running away from Emma in New York. So just a second before we actually saw who he was. And I'm sorry, but I will never ship Captain Swan nearly as much as I shipped SwanFire and nothing can convince me otherwise. Neal was just amazing.

1. Peter Pan is actually Rumplestiltskin's father.

Whoa. Just "PFFFFT". That's the sound of my brain exploding. I didn't figure out this plot twist ahead of time. In fact, it took me a few minutes after the episode to try and get it all straight in my head. I mean, the fear on Rumple's part suddenly made sense. And so did the weird familiarity Peter had with Rumple. It amazed me to no end and that's why it sits at the the top of this list as the coolest plot twist.